Debt.

Oh, did I forget to mention that I don't owe you anything? Did I forget to mention that...!!!?? Regardless of me forgetting to mention it... What actually made you expect that to begin with? I don't understand, could you please clarify that for me?

2009 - 45 days left to go....

I stumbled upon my own blog today and it has been abandoned for reasons unknown. A girlfriend of mine invited me to one of her blogs and sure enough my interest was piqued and I decided to take a gander at my own. While I had thought the last blog I composed was in April or May, I realized it was March 3 and today is November 16. Needless to say its been quite a while since I've passed over this... How does a writer begin to explain? Perhaps this is where the void in my life needs to be filled.

The truth is that when time is not taken to do those passionate agenda items on a daily basis... a void is created due to lack of self fulfillment. I've been working myself toward the 2009 year in review blog... (coming soon...so stay tuned!) it may however be more of a mini-book than it will be a blog. Reason being...as previously stated-when the clock struck midnight on January 1 of this year, I knew that it would be one of the hardest years of my life and it has been. (One of the hardest...not the hardest) From moving out on my own to taking on Graduate School, to being a Godmother, a girlfriend, an ex-girlfriend... a girlfriend then best friend/life partner. A rebel...a secretary (for the first time in my life!) a ditz... an alcoholic...a depressed character from the reality show called life... a teenage rebel... a self defiant bitch... an angry woman... a sad girl...a confused person, a disabled person, a medicated person, a selfish chica... a peasant...the butt of jokes... the victim... the insecure one and 'overly secure' one, the chubby one...the smoker... the bad friend...the distant one. The awarded one, the ambitious one...the wanna-be...the incompetent...the damaged and sub-average one... The spiteful one, the oppositional one and the cheap one...

Though I've been a lot of things this year and in my life in general my year in review will allow me to peacefully say... I've shed this skin...and 2010 will be so much brighter. (Graduation in June is on the horizon...)

Interestingly enough, the girlfriend who brought me here today shared with me a tidbit of information that all writer's must know...to write every day. "No matter what" she exclaimed, "you have got to write every day." I somehow believe in my own twisted mind capacity, I often do things backwards and opposite as you'll read in Like Nike...just do it... so perhaps my New Year's/Birthday Resolution will be to challenge myself N O T to write every day...and maybe to gain 40 lbs while I'm at it ;) In challenging myself to eat more...maybe I will lose weight. HAAA...imagine that. Thank you friend for welcoming me back home to blogger...

Talk to you soon.